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2008-12-02T09:18:57Z

fail life fail fail fail fail
must.... study...............

r

2008-12-02T00:28:44Z

this isn't fair.
you're not allowed to get mad at me
for something like this.

i don't understand.

RE: the one who loves moons.

2008-11-25T08:22:12Z

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me

I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
My heavy heart sinks deep down under you
And your twisted words, your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

^{sara bareilles - love song}

you

2008-11-24T10:10:05Z

have your damn moon.

you don't need me, i don't think, for all your "want to visit"s and "i miss you"s. which don't really come that often anyway.

i'll still love you
but i really can't believe in you anymore
this time

embarking on a new adventure

2008-09-01T19:30:15Z

leechblocking everything and giving up soda and chips, it's all the same, in a way. it's a test to see how strong i am........ though obviously, i am not very strong if i need to rely on leechblock.

but maybe now i'll be able to concentrate.

eeeeee i'm really doing this.
how exciting!

don't stop don't change .

2008-07-22T10:43:56Z

it only makes sense, she says.
it only makes sense if you know me.

but i do, he protests. he's hurt; this is love, to him anyway.

it can be love anyway, she laughs.
it can be love but you don't know me.

when he asks, says, tells, when he's serious, she laughs.
she laughs a lot. a lot, but it doesn't reach her heart.

ridiculous, he tells his friends.
i have to get out of this relationship, he says.
b-b-b-but he can't. head over heels, and she knows it too.
(better than he does, yeah.)

poison kisses in the rain, you were calling out my name
laughin' like the joke was on me

you're like a drug, he tells her.
(addicted to you, he almost says, but.
it gives her too much power, he thinks so he doesn't.)
she smiles, she says i know, she says i know.

wake up, hit the floor
oh no, where'd you go

he still swears (but only to his friends) that he will.
leave her, yeah, he says. yeah, she's bad business.

(but in his heart he knows he can't)

i

2008-07-15T10:56:42Z

i'm sorry
, i understand so much better now
because i know what it's like.

i'm sorry sorry sorry.

hontou ni ii kanji da yo naaaaa.

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2008-07-12T01:31:50Z

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b

2008-06-17T04:15:56Z

girl tell me little lie
please tell me little lie (ho~)

聞こえるように。

l

2008-06-14T06:18:14Z

i dunno why the fuck you keep pretending like you care. :\

h

2008-06-14T04:04:16Z

juuuuuudeeeeee juudeeeeee juuuudeeeeeee juuuudeeee .

apathetic.?

v

2008-06-09T08:16:19Z

here we go round the prickly pear
prickly pear prickly pear
here we go round the prickly pear
at five o'clock in the morning.

between the idea
and the reality
between the motion
and the act
falls the shadow
                             for thine is the kingdom

between the conception
and the creation
between the emotion
and the response
falls the shadow
                             life is very long

between the desire
and the spasm
between the potency
and the existence
between the essence
and the descent
falls the shadow
                             for thine is the kingdom

for thine is
life is
for thine is the

this is the way the world ends
this is the way the world ends
this is the way the world ends
not with a bang but a whimper.

^{the hollow men, t. s. eliot}

^{note to self; 080608 chat}

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2008-05-27T07:13:59Z

no.

hahahahhahahahhaaahh

f

2008-05-25T11:49:58Z

the intrigue of this is less writing
a) to myself; b) things i only want some people to see
- i could always do that on a private or filtered entry.

no, the intrigue is in the chance that somebody could find this journal.
and wonder who i really am. but the paranoia of that is probably why none of these entries are coherent.

..to be honest, i am just not a very coherent person.

落

2008-05-25T09:54:03Z

you know i do
i do love you
지쳐가는 모습도
작아져가는 그대 뒷모습도

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2008-05-24T21:33:39Z

i know it will probably all be okay in the end;
rex will get over it (what? i will get over it)
and i will have fun, make new friends, and all that junk.

but still.. right now, all i can think is nonononononono.

(and who am i kidding, hahahahahahahahahahahahhaa.)

..i better at least have a laptop.

_

2008-05-22T05:43:23Z

사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해사랑해.

foreverforeverforever.

thank you for everything

=

2008-05-21T18:24:40Z

상처
(when you cry cry)

---

괜찮아요 cause i understand

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you're still. beautiful to me

^

2008-05-21T17:51:46Z

get yo junk out mah ear .

&

2008-05-19T06:56:09Z

you just don't get it, you know.

%

2008-05-17T06:57:43Z

when the going gets tough,
the tough get going.

:( obviously, i am not tough.

#

2008-05-16T04:36:02Z

i really like you a lot.

but sometimes i just want to kill you

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

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2008-05-15T16:56:01Z

funny how things change
(quickly).

last year, it was possible
- plausible, even, to me,

that they would disband someday.
eventually, it had to happen.

and now, i won't let myself think of it.
can't. it hurts too much.

just thinking of the way they are now:
not split but surely not ( together )

it hurts so much. so. much.

those who don't care
,have other fandoms.
i've noticed this; it'strueit'strueit'strue.

can you imagine your boys splitting apart?

don't tell me it's different.
it's really.. not.. at all

--

i half support sjm. i do, i do ido.
i can't not. hankyungdonghaeshiwonkyuhyunryeowook.
how could i not. love is love, no matter what, or where.

but only13 is still what i believe in. always;
i don't want to be hurt. i don't want them to be hurt.

i can't post this in my journal.
i hate conflict

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2008-05-15T16:46:47Z

1.25 years sounds like nothing - i guess.
but emotionally, it's possible to get attached in a month, a day, less.

it feels like it's been forever..
and this time, it feels real.

i can't imagine life without them.
is this corny? it probably is; love is rarely ever not corny.

i don't think i could give this up
ever. it hurts me, but at the same time..

it makes me so, so happy.
^{PROUD OF YOUR LOVE}

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2008-05-13T08:06:38Z

"네, 오빠.."

tentative, afraid to ask.
her fingers twist the lap of her sundress.

"what, what is love?"

love; how do you define something so tangible yet
so intangible at the same time?

"you're lucky i know all the answers."

love사랑あい愛aimeliebeamoreamor.
it only goes to show, he thinks,

"you can know it in all the languages of the world"

but still not really know what it is.
now what is love 음악을 꺼

"love is only true when it hurts."

he looks up, startled,
she smiles back, proud.

"if your heart hurts, you know it's love, 오빠."

she figured it out, she's figured it out.
and he knew it already, and now that she's said it,

"it's just so right."